♥ When Love Is an Affliction

When love is an affliction,

There’s not much one can do.
Despite the way you’ve treated me,
I’m still in love with you.

I am the wave and you the rock
Against which I must break:
Again, again the crushing jolt,
The pain I can’t forsake;

Again, again the long retreat
To safety, far from shore,
And then again, I don’t know why,
The long trip back for more.

Perhaps it is nostalgia for
A long uncertain glow,
Or just some hope so beautiful
I cannot let it go.

Perhaps it is the need to try
For those who must depend
On who we are and what we do,
For whom this should not end.

What evil makes you hurt me so,
What defect of the heart?
What sense there is no greater whole
Of which you are a part?

What lonely choice that only you
Be served by what you choose?
What hard, hard fear of losing what
It is a gift to lose?

I dream sometimes my waiting love
Has made you turn again.
But you care only for yourself,
And I must love in vain.

~ Nicholas Gordon :sad:  :sad: 

♥ far away

The distant miles we’re apart
Makes my world feel so so dark.
All the rain drops flood my mind.
Just confusions is what I find.

Continuously I think of you.
What the hell will stop me from feeling so blue?
Round and round like a merry-go-round.
I’m all alone. There is on sound.

Depression thought of how to die.
I know I promised. Won’t do it. No lie.
Thoughts of you, joys of hope.
All I do is mope and mope.

How can I be in a world of bliss,
When you’re the only one I miss?
All I do is wish, hope, think,and pray,
Til that very special day.

Depression comes, fills my mind.
How the heck could I be so blind?
We will get through this, I know we can.
For you’re my only precious man.
Together throughout eternity is where we’ll be.
Happily ever after…Just you and me.
As I end this poem the sun comes out;
Because in my eyes we belong together beyond a doubt.

♥ when you need me

Now I?m feeling pain, and anger,
I always thought I would be stronger,
but I cannot pretend I can bear it, I hate it,
no-one seems to understand it, or feel it,
so let me tell you about it.

You hurt and destroyed me and left me with a broken heart,
even though you knew I?ve loved you ever since the very start.
I had to keep my feelings hidden and locked away inside,
and walk around with a ‘happy face’ pretending I had pride.
But all that is over, ’cause you know it?s true,
that ever since we met… I have loved you.

but all that?s not important, ’cause I haven?t got the face,
because it?s all an image race and I must know my place.
And just because of that I must act like I don?t love you any more,
I guess it?s just the way it goes,
but that I cannot do, I must be there for you,
I know you can see, that I?ll be there when you need me.

I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.
I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.

Now I know life?s so unfair,
when I say I cannot bare,
the fact that life is getting harder,
you think others have more to offer,
I don?t know why you make me suffer and tear my heart apart,
which is sad because I love you with all my soul and heart,
Others use you for your flesh and all you give em is satisfaction,
even though I don?t blame em because you?re such a great attraction.
Those who use you and those who love you with all their might,
life?s too short so you gotta make sure that your choices are right.
I?d be a fool to surrender when I know I can be contender,
and it seems to be that only the sinner can be the winner.
I know what you?ve been through because I?ve been there before.
a thousand times worse and I can?t take it no more.
I cry on and on, my heart is broken and weak,
and my growing pain seems to never reach its peak.
I?ll always keep trying to find the key to your heart,
I?ll be there when you need me, we?ll never be far apart.

I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.
I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.

People say I need to learn, to live a little,
and forget about you and what I feel for you for my own sake,
and receive a little.
But I don?t wanna hear that, because my loves a fact,
and I?ll always keep loving you, I?m sure you already know that,
but you don?t even seem to understand,
that my heart is always your hands.
I wouldn?t be so hurt if not for the jealousy that brings me pain,
I keep my eyes shut to stop me from seeing
what would probably drive me insane.
But I always keep seeing, you with another,
I know it?s your freedom of choice, so why do I even bother.
But at times of despair, I try to pull myself together,
but it seems that this pain will only last me forever.
But nothing is worse than a quitter,
I have to strive one day to be the winner,
I have to gather up my pain and turn it into ambition,
and maybe one day I?ll change your decision .

I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.
I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.

As we walk down the road of our destiny,
and the time comes to choose which shall it be,
It?s up to you to give and take,
and to decide which heart to brake.
Love can be heaven or the worst type of hell,
it?s the only thing you cannot buy or sell.
It?s when you need someone badly,
I need you and I?ll be there when you need me.

I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.
I?ll be there when you need me,
if you ever need me,
I?ll be there when you need me.

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